Unconscious thought, Freud and me

I have been reading about unconscious bias recently, and the way it reinforces what we already believe in. Unconscious bias makes us tend to like people who think the same way we do, who have similar backgrounds and upbringings, and even look the way we do. This has a number of effects on how we view the world.

Bias shapes our world view because it provides a shortcut for our brains when receiving and reviewing new information. If we immediately disregard anything that doesn't fit with what we already know or what feels familiar to us, then over time we develop a narrower world view. We will get less exposure to ideas, to different ways of life, to different situations. Our ability to have empathy for people diminishes if we can't imagine ourselves in the situations they find themselves in.

I became interested in what my own unconscious biases were when I realised after reading information about the subject, that just declaring you were open and tolerant of others wasn't enough to actually override the effect of bias on your thinking. I could tell myself all I liked that I didn't discriminate against certain groups but that didn't make it true. And in fact, all the reading I was doing was really reinforcing my unconscious bias as I was subconsciously filtering what I chose to read, and the information I was retaining.

Then I asked myself why I really cared about it at all. Why did I need to think about how I was thinking? I got stuck on this concept for a number of days, wondering why I cared about what my unconscious beliefs were. Sometimes when I have an idea that fascinates me I get obsessed with it, research it to death and read everything I can about it. But this one felt just out of my reach, like I couldn't quite grasp something really important about it. I couldn't even begin to narrow down a definition of what was in my head so I could type something in a search engine.

I put it down for a bit, got side tracked in other things as I tend to do. I happened across a blog post about transference which is where "we unconsciously transfer feelings and attitudes from a person of situation in the past on to a person or situation in the present". Basically, when a person or situation reminds you of something else you transfer some of the feelings you have about the original person or situation on to the new one. I was fascinated by this, in part because of the link between these unconscious thoughts and the unconscious bias idea I had been trying to get my head around. In both of these phenomena the mind is taking what we have learnt in the past and applying it to the present, effectively creating a shortcut for thinking. This sets up a situation where we learn something and then potentially perpetually recreate and reinforce it.

I started to get really excited by the idea that all these things could be impacting on the way I see and react with the world and I am not even aware of any of it. I looked up Sigmund Freud who is the founding father of psychoanalysis - a type of therapy in which transference plays an important role in making the unconscious conscious.

One of the first things that came up a picture of Freud's unconscious mind model, in which he used an iceberg to describe the three levels of mind. The tip of the iceberg is shown as the conscious mind, which is all the thoughts and mental processes we are aware of. The pre-conscious is the "working memory" type area of the brain, and then the unconscious mind, the bit of the ice berg well under water, is everything that we are not conscious of that influences thoughts, attitudes, processes, feelings and behaviour. Freud believed that our feelings, motives and decisions are influenced by past experiences and this is stored in the unconscious. While I don't agree with all of Freud's work, I do believe, as he did, that more of behaviour is governed by the unconscious mind that we realise.

And by putting all this together I had my answer. I cared about unconscious bias, and about situations of transference, and my core beliefs, because I am trying to change my pattern of behaviour. BPD is marked by (among other things) patterns of instability in mood, behaviour, self image and functioning. I need to be aware of the unconscious thoughts and beliefs my brain is holding in order to disrupt the pattern and then change it. 

Therapy has allowed me to look at this by working backwards - from the action such as impulsive or suicidal behaviour, back to the thought patterns and then back further to the trigger for those thoughts. But by also trying to uncover the unconscious core thoughts and beliefs held by my brain I should be able to work on changing them before I am triggered.

So I have decided to see if I can discover what my unconscious thoughts and biases are. Hopefully this will help me discover more about my patterns and how I can change them to bring more stability to my life.

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